Café Einstein
I managed to re-corrected one chapter of my thesis, after a thoroughly reading throughout the chapters. I sketched new ideas and corrections after I printed them out. It was so much easier reading on papers rather than on computer, which why I decided to print them out. As a bonus for myself, I went to a coffee shop called Einstein with some friends. Besides, I still had vouchers which need to be cashed. So, why not take some time off the thesis!
It turned out that it didn't really end well. A couple hours before we left the place. We started to discuss things about God and Christianity. SA and I had a really heavy discussion on the matters. Later he told me that he thought quite badly about me because he sensed that I tried to talk him out not becoming a Christian. The problem was that I unconsciously pushed him to the edge to prove my points. As I read my horosocope this morning, I realized that I was actually surrounded by friends who love me because I am always ready to go no matter what (ie. probably that I am quite persistent), but they don't seem to like it when I try to prove my points all the way, since they may find me a bit cranky. So, I need to be more relaxed and easygoing. Then, I apologized to him by sending him SMS right away. Till the time I write this, he hasn't answered back.
I wonder ... ever since I live abroad, I have changed alot, especially in my way of thinking. I'm not sure whether it has anything to do with my Mathematics study that made my thinking more logical than before. I haven't lost all my good sides or even the bad ones, but my ideas about God and Christianity have changed tremendously. That doesn't explain why I don't go to church anymore or even pray. As the matter of fact, I pray all the time without the necessity to close my eyes. Besides, who says that one can't pray with open eyes. When I say 'Oh God, I hope I'll get through this' or 'Thank God, it's over!' ... they're my prayers. I don't think, anyone would expect that I close my eyes as I walk on the streets to pray as I get out off some problems. Perhaps a car would hit me dead.
To conclude, I think there are so many Christians who don't really think carefully about being a Christian. They just want to stay on the 'safe sides' without really knowing whether they're really saved or not. I'd rather be consistent rather than be a phony Christian. That would be totally misleading and I don't like to lead to wrong ways.
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I've had some discussions about this with my housemates a few days ago. Most people we know who study Science change their minds about spirituality and start thinking realistically. So you may have a point there. But everything is up to you. Do you still have that belief? Personally, I don't like when people (including my friends) start talking about their religions. I tend to ignore them. Has he returned your SMS and accepted your apology?
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